During my years of having complex PTSD, over a decade, I struggled being able to regulate my nervous system. It used to fire up but then I really struggled to come down from that heightened state. It was like I was constantly living with an underlying anxiety, my thoughts would never stop and I would get sick quite often.
We know that the stress response closely aligns to our wellness, how we cope with life and how to we interact with our surroundings, situations and interactions.
Great things happen when we are able to regulate our nervous system, when we become parasympathetically dominant. Our breath is full, slow, and deep. The digestive system works well. The body can focus on repair, including reduction of inflammation, tissue repair, and hormone production. Subjectively, people feel fully present and alive.They have energy to get through their day, and they can stay calm and present in challenging situations.
During my long period of dealing with my PTSD, and probably for most of my life, I definitely had major issues in being able to regulate my sympathetic nervous system. After I was provoked by something, how quickly and smoothly did my system deactivate? Ummm, it felt like never. Was I still bothered by small events hours or days afterward? Ummm….yes!
So my life became like a washing machine, stopping every now and then to rinse and soak before it started its tumbling action again. Eventually I tried meditation, qigong, buddhism, sound healing, bringing awareness to my body and my thoughts to try and calm and control my responses. It helped but that underlying anxiety never truly went away. The negative thoughts and self talk never truly went away.
And then in 2016 Source showed me the energetic layers of self and that low vibrating energetic life moments, which you could describe as the equivalent of every life experience, sit in these layers of self and are triggered to rise to the surface in any given moment.
Once they rise to the surface they trigger the body and mind and then the nervous system responds.
What I was shown was that as this change in the physical vessel started to occur , Source showed me how to energetically work within my layers and calm and release these low vibrating life moments. The moment I started doing that, my thoughts ceased, my nervous system regulated, my body started to heal and I instantly became calm. I was stunned by the results.
In working in this way, by going into my layers the moment I felt something arise, and calm and release the energy that was there, I was able to heal my debilitating PSTD in 3 months. The wonderful other side effect was that my body started to heal as well from long standing issues and I was able to step into a space of higher consciousness and vibration.
I became more present and as I kept releasing these energetic life moments from my layers a stillness and peace became the underlying state. As I healed and had a greater capacity to be aware of when things were shifting within me, I was shown deeper life experiences which would normally have sent me in a downward spiral, but this time it had less of an effect. For as soon as it arose I was instructed to release the energetic component of it. Instantaneously the heightened effect of that memory disappeared but I was able to observe it with a calmness. There was no need to discuss it, to delve into it, it just was. It was something that had been, something that did not have a hold on me anymore.
Source told me that one needs to be able have a tool and the ability to downregulate the stress response in the body and mind before going into highly stressful material.
In other words, I was told that you should never go into material that’s overwhelming, because overwhelming inherently means it’s bigger than your capacity to deal with it. So instead of the issue resolving, more symptoms arise. The way around this was to first support the capacity for downregulation within the physical vessel. Then, only after this “ calming system” was on board, was the more difficult material or what I call , life moments, released through the layers, one bit at a time.
And so after a while I started to empty my cup of those things that kept my life bound. I started to vibrate at a higher frequency and one day the calmness and stillness and peace became a permanent fixture in my life. And the beauty of it all was that it was not a lengthy process of having to delve into my past and re- live my trauma. I had been doing that my whole life anyway, but once I released that energetic component of these life moments everything changed.
It is this system that I offer my students and clients. I teach them exactly what I was shown, in the exact order so that they too can step into peace and wholeness. I am now able to facilitate change in others. I am able to shift life moments, create deep healing, raise your consciousness and bring a calmness to your physical vessel just through my state of being. It is like you become entrained within the higher vibration and your whole being is able to shift its state into wellness and peace. It is wonderful to watch as this occurs in people.
I am also able to offer all of what I was taught by Source online and the shifts in people have been truly amazing and humbling to watch and it is unlike anything I have ever experienced before.
What I feel now and the space I live in is something that I wish for all.
May peace wraps its arms around you and carry you home.